A committed Christian disciple of his god and a fiercely focused fighter with an overwhelming desire to win. At almost any cost, to himself, and to others.
But, in the winter of 1993 and on into the early days of ’94, he was tired, worn down by business worries and the weight of his extraordinary success. More than that, he had doubts about his decision to move from McLaren to Williams; the car was far from his liking, and Michael Schumacher was in the ascendancy. A man, even a god, can only take so much and Senna was starting to feel the strain.
Viviane remembers this time, aware that her brother was not his usual self, not empowered with his customary energy and zeal.
“Yes, it’s true, absolutely,” she says quietly, bowing her head and searching for the words in English rather than her native Portuguese. “As he was accomplishing his own dreams, he started wanting to see other people have opportunities to fulfil their dreams and potential as well.
“He was these two people, very tough and very hard sometimes, even ruthless as you say, but he could be so caring, so gentle. He spoke to me a couple of months before he died and he was starting to think about what more he could do for his country, for the people who had nothing. He had always been aware and he loved this country deeply, not just because he came from São Paulo, but because – despite his privileges and his wealth – he knew something had to be done to try to close this gap between rich and poor.”
Senna had already helped many individuals, privately diverting money to causes, or families, that had been brought to his attention. But these were single donations, responses to a crisis or cheques written in the desperate hope that a part of his fortune might alleviate the misery of his own people.
“We knew, of course, that he had done this,” says Viviane, “but it was not an organised or planned thing, and he did not draw attention to it. Nothing was ever discussed or recorded in any detail. It was an emotional response to what he saw, what he knew and what he was told or shown.
“But in 1994, just two or three weeks before the race at Imola, he was in some different frame of mind when he asked me to help him set up some kind of organisation, a charity if you like, to tackle the increasing poverty. Children were always uppermost in his mind; he loved children, and he knew that unless something was done to improve their chances of a proper education then they would have no future. He believed that, with the right opportunities and with proper schooling, you could achieve anything.”
The Senna family is extremely close, very tightly knit, with a lot of importance placed upon the family living and working as one and presenting a unified strength in times of both success and difficulty. Ayrton drew great strength from his family and kept in close touch, but relationships were strained at the beginning of ’94. The rest of the family disapproved of his girlfriend Adriane Galisteu and had made it clear to Ayrton that they would prefer he ended the affair. His nephew Bruno, Viviane’s son, who had always been close to his uncle throughout his childhood, is fairly certain that this family rift affected Ayrton more than most people appreciated.